Q. There is not a second of the day when I feel that I am being watched. There is not a second of the day when I feel that there is someone around the corner in the closet in the shower trying to kill me. I'm afraid all the time over something I know is not there but no matter what I do or tell myself it doesn't help. Anytime I am by myself any little noise my ears instantly jump to the direction of the sound and then I feel like there is someone in the house with me. I can't do anything until I check it out.
My thoughts in my head are so crazy that I fear myself. I can't figure out what to believe in if this world is real if I am real. I think of killing myself all the time. I have tried already. I am shy; hate being the center of attention. I could go on for hours with the things I think about feel for things and what I feel is reality. I am at a dead end. I am 19 and had to deal with this my whole life. If I don't get help now I don't know what I am going to do.
A. You need to have a psychiatric examination, and do this as soon as you can. I cannot do it through this medium and provide the service you deserve. You could have something very easy to fix or something that might take a while longer. You deserve a face to face meeting with a professional who can follow your case.
