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struggling with life and death as we speak...am 26 year old
female...i was recently diagnosed with borderline....and as i read
these stories.......i can relate to these feelings....the rage,
the hurt, the pain, etc........Feeling no one understands
me.......i have no family......and 9 months ago I ended a
relationship with a man..i thought wanted to marry me ....we were
together almost 6 years....he would constantly make up
excuses....finish college....then we’ll live together..he
complained about my job, my friends, basically me. i could go on
and---my depression had hit me months before i had initially broke
up with him........crying all the time, couldn’t concentrate in
school, stopped caring about life in general......i went from a
3.83 g.p.a.----to barely passing.....i walked my self in the
E.ROOM....after seeking advice from a friends mom......oh ya and
drinking varnish remover the week before......since have been
hospitalized to a respite program...then sectioned twelved to a
psyche unit. then back to the respite program....i have since been
struggling 3 months with life now......this is going on my 7th day
of being out of the hospital environment.. which i absolutely
hated other than the meds i am on now-----which eventually will be
changed because of this disorder...i am living in a not so good
situation with three others (roommates)....who yes party a
lot.....am still out of work barely making it by
financially....still sad, depressed, and lonely.....that’s all i
would like to share for now.....hopefully will be able to write
back soon....when i can handle these emotions better.....thank you
for the opportunity to let me share...i actually have to call to
check in with crisis team at this moment---that i am still
involved with...if not they will be out looking for me....until
the dbt program they would like to get me in (3-4 weeks)....i
still don’t feel 100% safe....pretending to the few friends i
have left at this point.....trying to function day by day....it
sucks to feel this way....thank you......for letting me
vent....."The Ventor" |
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