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Hi I'm a 23 year old female with BPD that was diagnosed 8 years ago. I've decided that sharing my whole life story really isn't important at this point because I truly feel like once you've read one of our stories you've read them all! I started out wanting to make this inspirational because let's face it having BPD is pretty damn depressing! Unfortunately I don't think that’s possible. There are not a lot of high happy moments with this disorder, and unless you've lived with BPD you can never possibly understand the complexity of the it. In my opinion (which granted is just a little one) it is the fiercest of all mental health disorders. I think the key to understanding this honestly is to read stories of other people with the same issues so you know that you really aren't the only one out there feeling like this because as far as everybody else is concerned Dr's included (sometimes) is that we should just be able to snap out of this and that it really can't be that bad. That you just have to want it bad enough. Well let me tell you, I've wanted it bad enough for a long time. I've looked at all my friends grow up and go to college and become respectable adults that can pay their bills and maintain a relationship. Which seems impossible for me. I literally get tired just thinking about it. I guess I just want to let all my friends out there with BPD know that you are not alone. God did not pick you out single-handedly to be the poster-child for BPD (although you might think so sometimes ) and I truly believe that things will get better someday but until that day comes just take one day at a time, and I 'm sure that there is a ray of sunshine at the end of the road which is that I think god has a special place for us BPD survivors in heaven doing something really important and being really successful at it.
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