Q. I am Brazilian, living in brazil, I have been diagnosed so, by an American psychiatrist, for five times I have been in the ER and stayed there for weeks, treated with Haldol 10 mg. and cogenite, it work's.

My question is why I can stay without any drugs for several months almost a year living a normal life, working, studying. And no one around me for sure, has a clue of my very abnormal thoughts? but at the very end of that period, those thoughts gets stronger getting to the point to be abnormal?

Since I have been treated with Haldol, now I am taking the risk of out prescribing myself Haldol for about 2 months just enough to put myself together, since the side effects of this drug is just too much. (in brazil it easy to buy it.....) Doing this takes a lot of out analysis, because is quite easy to full ourselves that every thought is true, and not just a "Lie" that I thing comes from my ID in order to make myself a celebrity and satisfying itself as it does when we are sleeping however coded by the ego in order to protect itself (myself), here comes a little more of out analysis:

My ID sees my Superego as really a perfect and nice person , but forcefully "walks" along with the Ego since He has power to block up any of ID "Fantasies" which are used for my own good , those fantasies are used to satisfy the ID of a desire or anger not expressed by myself during (usually) the recent days, doing so keeping health mind, because if that anger or desire is not successfully repressed it will be in the mind which is a Trauma, And one would be aware of that "happening" for a very long period of time.

So I found out that it is really unhealthy to decode(decipher) the dreams because a well repressed failure would if decoded by the weaken mind becomes a trauma.

I could be wrong after a reading of Freud, but I do take into account what he said that is impossible to treat the kind of disorder that I have by analysis___

I think that the Doctor can do make use of the dream of a patient without telling him what do the dream mean! otherwise he would make thinks worst! e.g.: get him to know that that dream was a good thing (which usually is) and in the case of a recurring dream solve the puzzle basing of desires and anger happened in the live of his patient. but he got to keep the secret or the (repression) helping out the Id to satisfy itself by other means.

I know I don't have much studies to teach anyone and that I could be wrong, since my reading was just the basics, and is based mostly on auto analysis.

  A. I would go to see a psychiatrist that specializes in medications for treating depression, anxiety, and psychotic disorders. In short, a general psychiatrist. It is very risky to do what you are doing. In fact, it is impossible. If your brain is not working correctly, you cannot be sure that any decision you are making in treating yourself is correct. There is an old expression "A doctor who treats himself has a fool for a patient." It applies here. Do not treat yourself for something so important. Get professional help.