Story #17

I am fifty four and hope that by relating "My Story" that it will help someone, somewhere and that it might inspire you onto greatness by sharing with you my inner secrets, agonies, and rejections of the past. I would like to add at this point that I have 6 grandchildren and two adult children.

Born July 4, 1946 into a family of dysfunctionals. (that means to anyone who doesn't know what it means a family that couldn't function free of diverse behavioral and mental attitudes brought on because of some dysfunctional problem(s) in their family, and so on, and so on.) Where it is inheritable. I don't know if it is or not, but I do know that it is highly probable that it is environmentally inheritable, and somehow along the chains of abuse we will be strong and motivated to realize the pattern can be stopped and through counseling, knowledge attended with wisdom, support groups and last but certainly not least our faith in God, and ourselves we can come to terms of ourselves and break the pattern and bestow on our children that which we so desperately needed: love, acceptance and others reaching out from their need to help others knowing that when one does we reap what we sow. That it is indeed a blessing to both give and receive.

So to cut to the chase, I will tell you that I was abused sexually, emotionally, physically and told everyday of my life that I was no good, I would never amount to anything, and that the only way for my father to love me was to give him what he wanted sexually. My mother gave me the message that she would always love me as long as I did everything she wanted me to do including be her rescuer. There was no sexually attempts made as my mother, at least, had more respect for herself. One of the greatest secrets I have learned from all of this was that I needed to forgive without discussing these things that happened.

I don't feel it is necessary to go into my history in great detail, but I want you to know that I too have been there and in some areas, still am! I look forward in having others share with me, and perhaps between the two put to rest once and for all these incidences that have robbed our life from the pursuit of happiness long enough!