Story #26

My life is dedicated to the Miesen's for all of their love and support. I am 17 tears old and suffer from BPD.

It all began when I was about 5. My mother abandoned me one night and I just woke up to a house full of emptiness and a letter that I couldn't even read. I was too young.

I lived with my grandparents after that for about 8 years. My mother decided to come back in like nothing ever happened. I tried to get a long with her but it just never worked. She is a psychotic manic depressive that goes from guy to guy. About my eighth grade year she married the man that she is still married to now. He is a complete control freak.

My jr. year of high school i moved out of my house but moved back in a few weeks later. About three months after that I quit school and ran away with a GUY that I thought I was in love with. That's where everything went downhill.

I tried to commit suicide many times and came close to it once. Very close.

After a while i couldn't understand what was wrong with me. I know I wanted it to go away though. So I moved back home and went to the doctor. That was when I was diagnosed.

I now live with a family that i've been close to for about 6 years now. It is also my boyfriend's family. His mom is the mom I never had that I have always wanted. She makes me feel so much better.

Since I was diagnosed I have felt a lot better and am able to live my life a lot happier without all of the downfalls. I do experience the craziness and depression sometimes but I go to the doctor before they get too bad. I have learned to take care of myself. And with the love of my new family I have been able to overcome my feelings of abandonment. Thank you guys.